Sunday, September 11, 2011

A PATHETIC ME

do you know how does it feel when your life turn upside down and all you can do is just sit over your bed and cry for it?


do you know how does it feel when you have tons of problems but you don't have anyone to share with, so all you can do is keep it and eat it like you eat fucking pizza?


do you know how does it feel when people come and go in your life like you are nothing?


do you know how does it feel when all of a sudden you realize that you just good for nothing to all people around you, and they don't really like you either?


do you know how does it feel when you sit at a table with your friends and they keep talking about their colleague, lecturer, assignments and all that crap while you can't even say a word because you just a damn waitress at almost 7 restaurants where you can't even stay work at each restaurant for a month?


do you know how does it feel when your family didn't ask you 'where the hell have you been? i thought you were dead' -at least- even you didn't go back home near a year?


do you know how does it feel when you always feel like you wanna cry even when you play guitar, eat, watch tv or whatever because you can't stop thinking about your miserable life?


do you know how does it feel when you have to face day by day with fear that anyone would hurt you physically or through the unseen way?


do you know all that?


you don't know because you're not me.

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